Well I hate to admit it but I have a crippling fear of horses. I realized this fear for more than 10 years now but did not realize how bad it was until today.
Instead of being in my embroidery den working, I decided that I wanted to work away from home for a short period of time. I've worked for this employer in the past and did not have a problem with any of the assignments. The employment is seasonal and we have less than two weeks to go to the end.
Well! yesterday my team was assigned to a new project and for the life of me I couldn't "get it". Each time I tried to make sense of the new information I just went blank. This morning I tackled it again and the same thing happened. I thought "What's the matter with me? It's never been so hard for me to grasp a new concept before." Finally I realized that the assignment related to my fear. Needless to say, that was the end of my day at work. My brain totally shut down and I panicked.
I was totally embarrassed to admit to my co-workers, and to myself, that my fear reduced me to a state of emotional paralysis. Even though I know that FEAR = False Evidence Appearing Real, I haven't been able to put this particular fear to bed yet. I look forward to the day when it will no longer have this hold on me.
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